Mood: Shaken...................o(s_s)o.................

Haiz, today I finally caught the 'fabled' movie "Identity", which I mentioned some time ago. It was quite a good movie actually, though I dun quite like it for it's gore n violence. Well, u see, I'm not one who is for violence n horror. Having zero guts, I'm more of a comedy person lar. By the way, I oso managed to complete my collection of the movie series "Taxi", a damn good French car racing show.

Spent today lamenting abt the never-ending work dat existed in my timetables, no matter how hard i try to finish my assignments, somehow after u are done, u will always find out dat there r more datelines coming. Time schedule may b slack for an Arts student, but the work sure gonna crash down on u.

Today, I found out dat actually a lot of theatre studies studentsr like mi, bore a dislike for our very lecturer who speaks dramatically in a farni accent n tone. Wat makes mi dislike him is basically his arrogance in his field. Of coz, he had the experience n credentials to be proud of his interpretations of the works, but his refusal to accept our ideas is a bit too much. He should be open to our interpretations, for different people likes to interprete wat they see according to themselves. By enforcing his ideas on us n dismissing our interpretaions as absurd, he's a bit way too arrogant for my liking.




*"Make everything as simple as possible, but not simpler." - Albert Einstein (1879-1955).................^_^..............

Mood: Dreamy............................`_`.........

"Where is the love".................Black Eyed Peas

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)






*"If you are going through hell, keep going."........................^_^........ - Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

Mood: Melancholy............."__*.............

What I've Learned As I Matured...

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people are just jerks.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,
and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better have a big weenie or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others...
they are more messed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep puking
long after you think you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible
for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy
a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and
there had better be a lot of money to take its place.

I've learned that the people you care most about in
life are taken from you too soon and all the less
important ones just never go away.





*Don't be nice when you don't mean it.. it hurts even more.........................^_^...........................

Mood: In DeEp TotS...............@_@..............

Well, juz went for Alice's 21st bdae yesternite. It seems dat others seem to be excited over the big 21st bdae, perhaps I'm the only one who didn't make a fuss out of my bdae. In fact, I'm 1 kinda person who nvr celebrated my bdaes wif bdae parties, perhaps I'm just a heck care slacker......hahaha..........

On reaching there, tho it was nice to catch an old army fren there, the most intriguing stuff gotta be our change of opinions n mentality when we grp 2gether 4 a chat. Tianming was pointing out the fact dat all of a sudden we r oreadi on our way to reaching the big '3' digit in our ages, rite after Ziliang about to welcome the birth of his first son. Dis sure makes us feel old, since there was a time where we are only 16........................

The only depressing stuff about yesterday would be the fact that I was unable to fit in quite a huge chunk of their conversation. Basically, it's like NTU world n the NUS world..........I seems to be missing out on a lot of their relations n happenings. How ironic dat juz only the day before I told Jezamine dat I m grateful to be in NUS coz I really learnt a lot, n mostly abt stuff dat I'm really interested n curious abt.

Gone r the days where I find studying a chore, I am receiving the wonderful new and yet interesting stuff from the tutors. I am learning sumthing not bound by rules but rather free and creative, flexible stuff.
I may b missing out my frens interaction in NTU, but I find dat it's worthy sacrifice for the stuff I'm learning. Of coz, trying ur damn best to make new frens is a challenge itself, but the prospect of getting in touch wif more stuff really broaden my perspectives, most impt of all is the fact dat I'm able to look at things now in a different way which I never encountered before.





*A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.......................................^_^.....................

Mood: Amused..................................$_$................

Well, this few days fraught wif rushing to complete my sociology report as well as starting ono my drama review. And only today do i realise that if my group dun start on our changing landscapes project, we gonna cannot make it liao............so more work 2 do...........>_<

Today's practical marks the beginning of our venture into the text sphere, we gotta analyse the dialogues as if we are some psychiatric, u gotta reveal the characters involved, well basically just plain hard work 2 even make sense of the text.

I was quite talkative in both skool sessions today, especially in the 1st when we gotta debate abt urban planning. I gotta refute the other team that economic growth is not the main aim 4 the govt's planning, n my team was profounded when they use our points 2 argue for their cause, but it proved to be a wrong move when they lose their own track. They keep emphasizing on the economic aims of the planning itself when its obvious that econ growth is juz a product, not the goal. Basically, its a crap session lar..............





*"The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his.".....................................- General George Patton (1885-1945) ...................^_^

Mood: Thrilled......................................o(^_^)o

A boring start to the same old Sundays, not much flair in the routine. However, I'm able to end the day on a high note thanks to the magnificent Moulin Rouge tv premiere. Wat a splendid show it was, dazzling with the sultry dances and moving hearts with those classic tunes.

Nicole Kidman had a great outing in the show, a perfect manifestation of the sultry n sexy dancer in Moulin Rouge, bedazzling all in her way. She was daring in playing dat role, which sees her oozing with every bit of seduction the role ought to have. Mesmerized by her, she kept me entertained with her aura, in addition to the heart-wrenching tunes sang in the show. BRAVO to the Moulin Rouge!!!!!

This is a story about...............TRUTH...........BEAUTY.............FREEDOM.................................
but most of all............it's about..................LOVE...............Moulin Rouge






*The best thing in the world is to love and be loved............................^_^...............Moulin Rouge

Valentine's Day

--IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE--

If you love some one because you think that he or she is really gorgeous...
then it's not love.. it's "Infatuation"......


If you love some one because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you shouldn't...
then it's not love.. it's "Compromise"......


If you love some one because you think that you cannot live with out his touch...
then it's not love.. it's "Lust"......


If you love some one because you have been kissed by him...
then it's not love.. it's "Inferiority Complex"......


If you love some one because you cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings...
then it's not love.. it's "Charity"......


If you love some one because you share everything with him...
then it's not love.. it's "Friendship"......


but if you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when he is stable and you cry for him...
that's "Love"..


if you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets...
that's "Love"..


if you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to...
that's "Love"..






•o(^_^)o loVe hAs aLwAys beEn sO bEautIfuL & paInfuL.. If u hAvE aChiEved BoTh, tHaT's caLLeD tRuE loVe. o(^_^)o.............................................^_^.........................

Mood: Melancholy............."__*.............

Yesterday was a fruitful day at the theatre studies practical, learnt abt "Perpetual Imperceptible Motion". Apparently, it was sum form of Matrix-styled bullet time motion, involving such slow movements dat u nvr tot ur body could possibly accomplish. Basically, we did a simple motiono of lifting up my hand 2 point in front, n surprise surprise, i actually took 13 minutes!!! It would have been even longer had i not lose my concentration halfway. Truly amazed by my body's capabilities, I'm depp rooted in the tutor's words dat our bodies r like uncovered treasures which we nvr seek or managed 2 find out wat it can do.

The trick 2 sustain bullet time motion basically involves the focusing of ur tots 2 a memory which holds powerful n significant feelings. By focusing on the memory, u will b over rushed by the emotion, leaving the pain n ache of the body motion 2 the very back of ur mind n ur body will automatically move by itself, wonderful experience.................

Juz pia all the way 2 Changi Airport so dat i can c Dominic b4 he embark on his flight 2 Brisbane. It was the 1st time i saw him ever since i ORD half a yr ago. Haiz, how good it was 2 c a familiar old face, especially of sum 1 who's quite close (actually shd b vv close) 2 mi during our 2 n 1/2 yrs of SAF life. In fact, Ah Dom was my section leader, n he's the guy who always treat us well n join in our tok cok sessions. He even forged a wonderful partnership wif mi during our Ops Bacinet, where we always go 4 rides in the rover n slept our way thru...........hahahah

Well, a lot of frens goin overseas........1st Dom, soon gonna b Leslie's turn................ahhaha............hope can still keep in touch by then.............




•(Ye5teRdaY Is A hisToRy..... ToMoRrOw Is A My5teRy...... ToDaY Is A MeMoRy...~!!!!~)

Mood: On the Fence...........>_^

Today heard abt a strange movie called "Identity" from Jared, supposed 2 b a movie wif a twist. He said dat the movie shows a story of sum pple kena trapped in a house den murders occured. With everyone blaming the serial killer who got loose, the whole movie seems 2 b in disarray when a guy is suddenly depicted locked in a chair. It was at dis moment dat things start 2 clear up, the movie was actuallying depicting a guy wif mutiple personalities, n the killings r actually his inner personalities at war.

I think its amazing that personalities clashes can b made into such a movie..........certainly arouse my interest 2 watch dis movie..........dis is quite fascinating 4 mi in an otherwise boring day........wif lectures from lecturers who sux...........

Hmm......dis week is machiam like a Hell week 4 mi......lotsa work n presentation 2 due dis week.......so no more time....gotta get my engine started 4 the work ahead............argh........




*A true fren will see you through when others see that you r through..................................^_^.............................

Mood: In a Hot Wok........................#_#

Hahahaha...........think the title aptly describes my current situation, in a frenzy over tremendous workload, no thanks 2 a little procrastinating on my part. I gotta admit, my house is no place 4 study, everytime i sum how will gonna b distracted by the bed, or television or my computer. Haiz, it's such a difficult task to beat ur weakness n desires.

Today, actually skipped my lectures 2 come back home early juz so dat i can sort out my notes(in a mess) n get ready 2 finish all my work due dis week. 1 great thing gotta b the flash Zichao sent mi, a cute flash on Valentine Day. Its abt this cute cartoon character lamenting abt his lack if spouse in a farni way n attitude, sure 2 bring laughters to all on this festival of love.

Well, since Valentine's Day is dis Saturday, flowers will definitely b a common site on the streets, 2 provide romance for those in love, as well as provide anguish 4 those OUT of love....HAHAHA.......So i present dis table on the symbolism of numbers of flowers, hope dat u can refer 2 it n decide the no of stalks 2 get 4 ur other half.

1 Love at 1st Sight
2 Mutual Feelings
3 I Love You
7 I'm Infatuated with You
9 Together as Long as We Live
10 You're Perfect
11 You're my Treasured One
12 Be my Steady
13 Forever Friends
15 I'm Really Sorry
20 I'm Sincere towards You
21 I'm Committed to You
36 I'll remember our Romantic Moments
40 My Love is Genuine
99 I'll Love You till the Day I Die
100 I'm totally Devoted to You
101 You're my One and Only
108 Will You Marry Me?
999 My Love will last till the End of Time





•~ WhEn I fIrSt SaW U, i WaS ScArEd To TAlK 2 U. whEn i FirSt TaLk 2 U i was ScArEd 2 kIss U. whEn i FiRst kiSs U i wAs ScaRed 2 luV u. NoW thAt i luV u.. i'm sCaRed To loSe U ~

Mood: Hmm.............."_"...................

Saw Yongwei's little piece abt luv........bascially kop from him 2 put here........hahaha

Love
1) Love is a combination of emotions, cognitions and behaviour that can be involved in intimate relationships.
(2) "Liking" is different from "love" (Rubin, 1973).
(3) And "love" is different from "being in love" (Regan and Berscheid, 1999), the former not containing the sexual desire and excitement that is an essential part of the latter.

a) Passionate love (or romantic love):
(i) State of intense absorption in another person involving physiological arousal.
(ii) Confusion of feelings: tenderness, sexuality, elation and pain, anxiety and relief, altruism and jealousy.

(b) Companionate love:
(i) The caring and affection for another person that usually arises from sharing time together.
(ii) Less intense emotion, combining feelings of friendly affection and deep attachment.
(iii) Characterised by friendship, understanding and a concern for the welfare of other (Hatfield, 1987)

(a) Eros (passionate love)
(i) Love is an all-consuming emotional experience.
(ii) Love at first sight is typical, and physical love is essential.

(b) Storge (friendship or companionate love)
(i) Love is a comfortable intimacy that slowly grows out of companionship, mutual sharing and self-disclosure.
(ii) A best-friend lover is thoughtful, warm and companionate.

(c) Ludus (game-playing love)
(i) This person plays at love as others play tennis or chess: to enjoy the ※love game§ and to win it.
(ii) No relationship lasts for long, usually ending when the partner becomes boring or too serious.

(d) Mania (possessive love)
(i) The possessive lover is emotionally intense, jealous, obsessed with the beloved.
(ii) The possessive lover is highly dependent on the beloved and therefore fears rejection.

(e) Pragma (logical love)
(i) This is ※love shopping for a suitable mate§, and all it asks is that the relationship works well, that the two partners be compatible and that they satisfy each other＊s basic needs.
(ii) The pragmatic lover seeks contentment rather than excitement.

(f) Agape (selfless, altruistic love)
(i) This style of love is unconditionally caring, giving and forgiving.
(ii) Love means a duty to give to the loved one with no strings attached

What kind of lover are you?
I'm................Agape..........n Storge....................
So........wat kind of luver r u???






•Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall................................^_^....................................

Mood: Amused..................................$_$................

Today is the ever-waited Wednesday, where i can get 2 let my hair down in the fun n beneficial theatre studies practical. Basically, we learnt an Indian dance, which was supposed 2 help us understand the power of gestures n body movements. I wun dare 2 laugh n joke at Indian dances anymore, after learning how difficult they can b. The numerous hand n facial expressions can depict a story, even wifout any words. Amazing sia, i can now look at the story behind those dances.

Wat amused mi was the incident dat happened after the practical. My fren was rushing ahead of us, leaving mi bewildered at why was he leaving us behind. Soon, i found the answer. It was bcoz dis cute ger from my practical class had gone in front 2 the bus stop, n there was my fren, sitting bsides her den taking ages 2 pluck up courage 2 tok 2 her. Mi n my frens had a great laugh, he juz seems farni doing all such awkward stuff. Even a blind can c dat he's interested in her, well, he better buck up coz Valentine's coming soon.

Dis incident provoke a thought, why do guys(n mayb gers) act strangely in front of the 'crush'??? Is it bcoz of the biological structure, dat ur heart will start pumping more blood, u flush n hormones start rushing thru every single vein in ur body..............or is it the emotional 'excitement', dat u will b occupied wif her/his presence n start acting strange n awkward. Still, do all pple act dis way??? I dun think so. As the saying goes "Dun judge a book by its cover", sumtimes a cold exterior hides a warm heart..........an ice maiden may even have enormous passion raging n burning inside of her........Wat if the guy/ger dun flutter or show the feelings he/she have in front of the crush??? How can we tell???

So, think back about ur past endeavours n c wat kinda person u r.........the flustering kinda or the ice maiden???





•A girl and a guy can be just friends, but at one point or other they will fall for each other... Maybe temporarliy, maybe at the wrong time.................^_^....................

Mood: Hmm.............."_"...................

A great note for all to read it will take just 37 seconds to read
this and change your thinking.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help
drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was
next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families,
their
homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they
had
been on vacation.

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window
could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the
things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those
one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all
the
activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children
sailed their model boats.

Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every
color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the
distance.

As the man by the window described all this in
exquisite detail, the ! man on the other side of the room would close his
eyes
and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a
parade passing by.

Although the other man couldn't hear the
band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window
portrayed it with descriptive words. Days and weeks passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for
their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the
window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called
the
hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked
if he could be moved next to the window.

The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after
making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow
to take his first look at the real world outside.

He strained to slowly turn to look out the window
beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what
could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful
things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could
not even see the wall.
She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."

Epilogue: There is tremendous happiness in making
others happy, despite our own situations.





*Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when
shared, is doubled............................................^_^..............................

Mood: FaTiGuE.............>_<

Recently, i've been keeping in contact wif my primary skool buddies(kinda old rite), especially Hao Min, Genghai, Liyun, Ailian n Meiyan. It is vv heart-warming 2 get back in the act wif them, after a period of long lost times. Basically, we r meeting up quite frequent dis days 4 a good time out.

Many things have changed. Whenever we tok abt the good old times, we could get a great laugh out of it, on our naive yet passionate childhood moments. Old photos show us as small cute kids seeking joy n fun in everything we see or know about. Being so small back den, it's great 2 c how we have changed during these years.

The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.





*Show someone you care for them today. It takes so little of your time to smile, give a hug, a word of encouragement or just to say "I care"......................................^_^........................