Into Thin Air : Death on Everest

Yup, dats the title of the movie I just caught on Channel 5, a show about a group of climbers trying to conquer Everest, world's highest summit. A typical tearjerker. The problems depicted in the movie was very realistic, well it had to be been based on a true story. The mental stress n physical torture potrayed lets u feel as if u are goin thru dat hell of a lifetime. Lack of oxygen, bloating of ur brain, water-filled lungs, dizziness, vomitting, exhaustion, frostbite; all the potential dangers sets in n try to stake a claim on ur fragile life.

Of coz, deaths to the team was certain. the 2 group leaders, several teammates, some died becoz they simply cannot survive, some becoz they wun leave their frens behind. Of them, the tears would go out to Rob Hall, the calm n great team leader who didn't survive becoz he wun leave his fren behind. He set a time for the team to return at 2pm even if they never reach the summit, but he break his timing for his old fren sake. He never survive the nite out in the storm reaching temperatures of -100*C. The tears roll out for him when he ask for a call to his wife, just to tell her the name he tot for their unborn daughter. Even a steel heart would weep at dat.

While this may seem exaggerated, as a guy who have been thru the tortures of life(note dat means NS), it seem so real n yet bring back unwanted memories. When a human is pushed to the limit, dats where u see their true self. It set me thinking of the times dat my army mates n I were physically n mentally on the brink of collapse, n yet try our very best to pull together n survive. Sure, dats y in the army, we easily build a spirit to tie us together. Of coz, there were those who never care for others, n were outcast n forgetten.





*"If you are going through hell, keep going."........................^_^........ - Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

Land before Time

All time favorite song from Land Before Time, the most fav cartoon show i loved first.

If We Hold On Together
by Diana Ross

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth
In your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the winds
must learn how to mend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears
All away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come
Home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there
In the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark
We'll feel the light
Warm our hearts
Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
As high
As souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I





*Dreams see us through to forever if all closed ones hold on together.

Jazz Concerto

Yesternite had a great nite when I went to the Arts museum, courtesy of Ailian's introduction. Had a great time listening to Ireson, the band in performance, blending jazz with salsa n samba to give a splendid n potent mix of hot, enticing music. Consisting of the hand drums, drums, saxophone, keyboards n guitar, the one dat caught my attention was the hand drums. Boy, was he God at work, he can play the drums so damn fast dat ur eyes gonna pop out of their sockets. There's a part where he's allowed to go solo n he really captivated the audience wif his magnificent handwork. Well, altho i had listened to most genres of music, this incident really makes me feel like getting more of jazz. It shall be done.....

Just the same old usual stuff, go makan abit den tok abit here n there. It's a shame dat we dun have much people present tho. Aniwae, at such boring times when i'm rotting at home, meeting ups wif frens can be a good thing. BTW, finally got the earpiece i longed for at 80 bucks, how my heart aches..........hahah.......





•Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once......................^_^

The One That Got Away

PS. I'm doing a repost of this entry bcoz of the theme in accord with my previous entry. Well, I'm still hoping for those who got away will come back into my life.



In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yours elf to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you have become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in
a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your
commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."




•You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person..............................^_^

First Love

As the title says, I finally bought the vcd to sastify my craving for this cute little piece of Thai movie going by dat title. First Love tells of a tale of a small boy who face the dilemma of joining in with other guys and the girls he used to play with.

My first impression - Super farni piece of work by the directors(6 in all!), the situations depicted are so reallife dat one can relate to them, n yet not forgetting to add in certain stupendous scenes such as the old chinese gongfu slick scene. Such parts really have me rolling over with laughter.............

However, the melancholy hidden in the show was really very touching. Jeab the male lead was torn between trying to blend in with the boys and with his fav pal Noi Nah. He had the innocent look n mindset throughout the movie. Focus Jirakul gave a sterling performance as Noi Nah, the young ger commanding over Jeab. She display such cuteness n innoncence dat will only make 1 love her. (Okie, I'm trying to mean dat she tmd ke ai, dat dun mean I'm a paedophile......)

A splendid piece of work, especially good for those like me on a voyage to seek the happy times of the past.
Reminds me of the good old times with the buddies( okie by this I mean Haomin n Genghai dat group....if u all r watchin.....)
Reminds of my first love....(Genghai n Ailian, if u dare to disclose my secret u will get it from me)
Reminds me of childhood innoncence( betcha many will disagree wif dat coz i used to be a naughty boy)
Reminds me of...........time lost....................

I must really applaud this movie for reminding of my past, however painful n undesirable it may be, there r still the colourful moments to remember n bring along into the grave, not forgetting to curse it for making me have the sudden rush of emotions to seek out the very cute little ger out there.....................*blush*





*How come I feel dis sudden rush of emotions into my head, knocking my consciousness away?......................^_^

Countdown to June...............Yikes.....!!!

Looking at the calendar today, I realise that I missed out on Junwen's birthday yesterday. If you happen to be watching my blog, I'm sorry, and a belated Happy birthday. Haiz, his birthday marks the countdown to June, which ought to be the best month, and have yet become a month I dislike.

June, for 2004, meant that I'm gonna be off for the Sports Pre-camp, a 7 day torture in the waiting for me. This means I'm gonna miss out on 2 of my good old buddies birthdays, Tianming and William. After so many years of celebrating with them, think I'm gonna miss out this year.

June, the very holiday month where the streets will be bustling with activities thanks to the kiddos who dun need to go to skool. Okay, I used to be one of them....hahaha....

June, means that many of my friends will be older by 1 year, not forgetting I'm one of them. Well, my parents will still do the usual of trying to get me out for dinner and I'm gonna reject them as usual. For me, the past 21 years spent without any birthday parties or celebrations have oreadi honed my heart in getting used to being alone in my own little world on the very day I cried into this world. Dis year, 21 will become 22, dats means 22 blank pages in my life book. Well, I discovered that I dun really have much to write about life, boring, depressing and nothing impressive. Just a simple old story dat one will miss out even if he/she took care to pay attention to. Like wat Rambo said in First Blood series, "I'm expendable....."




*I never left any footprints through the journey of life, and when my time is up, all will be forgotten - my life, my love, my feelings, my actions and my very own existence...............^_^

Bad Things.................:(

1. Results - Got my results, sux totally. A lousy cap to torment me for the rest of my sems in NUS, now i gotta becareful not to flunk any of my mods

2. Holidays - Too free and rotting at home, shoulda start moving about

3. Pub - Chinablack sux big time, I have to accompany my primary skool buddies outside wating for 2 hrs to go in for half an hr to let police raid the pub. Spoil the whole day.

4. Comp - Computer down wif viruses and spywares, now keep giving mi probs, n i gotta type dis entry again thanks to it.

5. Sports Camp - It's too long for both camp n pre-camp. A total of 13 days, sux big time. n Zichao pang seh mi....hmmph

6. Meet-ups - organise a few meet-ups to disatrous results, just gimme a tight slap will ya.

7. Weight - Still too fat n heavy to squeeze into my jeans

8. Cupid - Stoopid Cupid let mi saw an old friend, a pri skool classmate, who is happily tucked away into the arms of her boyfren.....Boohooo......





*Throughout time, men have waged war. Some for POWER, some for GLORY, some for HONOUR - and some for LOVE....................^_^............Troy

Good Things...........................:)

Haiz after a long period of procrastination and slacking, it's time to update my poor old blog again.

1. Troy - Watched a good movie, well, it removed the parts of the gods in The Illiad, but still a splendid piece of action. Archilles fights as if he were dancing, super nice. Ohh, Diane Kruger is mesmerizing as Helen, I would oso snatch her away.

2. Van Helsing - Another good movie for me because of the medieval and gothic themes, not to mention the presence of all the super chio ladies in the show.

3. Work - Well, in fact only two days of working as a temp staff, at least spend the days doing useful stuff.

4. Exercise - Managed to maintain my exercise routine, in fact lost a kg liao......even though there's lots more to go.

Mood: FaTiGuE.............>_<

Recently, the bid to regain my fitness through daily runs and exercises brought it's burden on me, aching legs and exhaustion. I even embarked on my first soccer playing ever since dunno ags ago. Junwen, Jason, Wilson, Zhongwei, Jiaqing n Chun Kiat joined me for this morning of fun n laughter, well, since all of us are damn tired from just a bit of running here n there. Still, I enjoyed the match today, a real piece of enjoyment.

I managed to catch Van Helsing, a wonderful piece of artwork. Gothic settings coupled with the medieval costumes, sounds like a recipe for my delight. Enjoyed the movie very much, not to mention the fact that the actresses in the show really catches your eye.

Ohh, I was selected for the Sports Camp councillor after the interview. Though I look forward to both the pre-camp n camp, I do note a tinge of disapproval for the length of the camps, a 7-day n 6-day camp respectively. Wonder how much time it will cost me...haiz............

Nobody Knows ..................by Tony Rich Project

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

Chorus:
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside,
and nobody knows it but me

I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still

Repeat Chorus

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart And hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...





*Dun judge a book by it's appearance, u never know what's inside. Same can be said for a man, how do u know how I feel without seeing what's inside of me...............?...............^_^

The Picture of Dorian Gray

The latest book i bought and finish reading is this classic. Basically, I was inspired by the movie League of Extraordinary Gentleman to know more about this mysterious figure. In the classic, Dorian Gray was a man of extraordinary beauty, charming and yet naive. He was a good person who's just curious about the way of life in the beginning of the story. However, he got to know this lord who just happen to have a heterodox thinking, and indeed, prove to be the bad influence in leading Dorian Gray to his downfall.

By then, an artist have given Dorian a perfect potrait of himself, and Dorian wish for his beauty to last forever instead of the potrait. Well, he got his wish, but in return the evil deeds and thoughts that he harbour would in return be transferred to the portrait. The story follows through his demise, with the potrait showing a vile disgusting creature while Dorian Gray kept his beauty, although he has picken up lots of bad influence and habits, such as smoking opium etc.

Towards the end, he even committed murder to safeguard his very own dark secret, his obession in preventing others from seeing the portrait, the true reflection of his own soul. He would not sleep at night so that he could take a peep at the portrait and regret his blasphemy, but he would not be able to change his ways. Although he tried to change, he found out that it was actually a 'red herring'; he's just fooling himself that he can change for the better, hence, he tried to destroy the portrait which potrayed the very own soul he hated. The story ends with him dying as the 'true' him, an old aging man while the portrait restored to the picture perfect drawing of Dorian Gray.

I like this classic for the way it potrayed Dorian Gray, who under bad influence, succumbed to his dark Desire and Lust. His obsession with keeping the portrait, while unable to resist the temptation of taking a look at it, showed his struggles within his inner demons, the emotional chaos he's going through. Tragedy it is, he wanted to repent but found that it was just wishful thinking on his part.

Each of us all have a dark inner demon, always seeking to creep out of us if we were to lose control over it. Perhaps, we should have our very own portrait as a mirror to reflect our vile soul tortured and twisted by our desires and lust. Looking at such a mirror would remind us to see our very own faults and keep them in check. The soul we all possess should be of utmost importance, we should purify our soul instead of wasting our time on the physical body.





*How do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your soul in the process? ..................The Picture of Dorian Gray................^_^

Post-Exam Blues........................

Finally reaching the end of the semester, and all the depressing final papers, it's time for a sought after 3 month holiday. However, the boredom of staying at home with nothing to do or worry about is taking its tool on me. Having nothing to do really depress myself whenever i thought of the time wasted......

Most important thing to do is to train my physique back, in preparation to clear my dreadful IPPT. Haiz, just the thought of taking the physical test makes me shudder........







*You create your reality with your intentions.........................^_^